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I was first given to. I was given my life, I was given love with this life, I was given freedom of choice and so many gifts. So now it is my turn to give and until I give I am not likely to receive. As I give love I make space to receive love. I open up to love and I give love a chance. I do not need to wait for a chance to give, the opportunity is always present. My spirit, my soul is healed as I give love.
There is no scarcity of love, it is free, it is plentiful and to be found anywhere and everywhere. It is within me, beside me, nearby and far away. Love is here now. It is throughout and beyond. I am never alone. My problem is that I have lost my ability to clearly see love. I no longer acknowledge love as my constant companion. Yet it is not within the nature of love to hide and be unavailable to me, for why would love be like that? No, it is I who has become remote from love.
Love cannot help but give of itself for that is the nature of love. Yet sometimes I barely recognise love, having a clouded view and being blinded by own lack of vision. On the blessed occasion I may be blinded by love, by its beauty and brilliance Where I do not see love today, I may find love tomorrow. So too I may think I see love today but be mistaken on the morrow.
In order to see love and be with love, I am required to practise and seek out love. I know that love will help me, for love cannot do otherwise, that is the nature of love. I may not however just sit back and let love do my work for me, it is for me to initiate the reunification by again turning back to love. As I do so I have picked a powerful and comforting partner to whom I may always ask assistance. Love will not, cannot, reject me for its pattern is to give. My efforts will always be rewarded. It is a case of “give and be given to” rather than “be given to and then give”. I am to make this first move of reconciliation. With love as my companion, I have chosen a mighty partner indeed.
Love is not rationed nor is it taxed. Love and all that is love is free. Love is more available than the air around me. I may tap into love wherever I am, within and without, for love is ever present. I only need to practise my recognition and spend my time with love. My task is to actively look for love and to seek love in every situation. To allow love to again become apparent, to be with love and devote myself to my partnership with love. What better cause is there in life? I am here to learn love; it is the reason for my life. My soul is love and yearns my return. It’s just that sometimes I have difficulty accepting this.
In the beginning I was love, what has happened since? How come I no longer recognise love? Where is the love within my soul? I have become so remote. I seem to have difficulty recognising my own spiritual self, my own soul. Do I no longer even see my true nature? Have I buried my soul so deep? Have I lost sight of who I am?
How come I let my thoughts advise me about my feelings? How come I let the world I perceive, the material world, tower so over me and the affection of my soul? How come I ignore my very being, that which is within me? How come I have shut myself off from love so effectively? It is now time to again be with love. It is not within my power to change yesterday, nor am I able to surely predict tomorrow, but by living love today then I become more loving. And love will love me for that, for love is ever present. By giving, I also receive. By giving love, I receive love. Being love and being loved is what I yearn. Love is who I am.
As I receive love I may pass it on for it will immediately be replenished. But not giving love is being apart from love and I will not have made space for love within. As I again allow myself to love and be loving, I am thankful. I am not to ask to whom shall I give love, I am just to love. The sun does not ask “For whom am I giving light?” the sun just gives light. The tree does not ask, “For whom am I giving shade?” it just gives shade. Likewise it is for me to just give. Give freely so I may freely receive. Practise giving and be thankful. Give with joy in the heart. Today is given to me for loving. I may find it easy to give love to some and more difficult to others. I am to practise for all are equal, all are souls, as I am, travelling temporarily on planet earth.
My giving is just to be giving, not with any attachment. If I give a gift with an expectation (other than love) it is no longer a loving gift. Should I give a child a football with a hope that the child enjoys it, that is a loving gift, for hope and joy are features of love. But to give with a condition that the child trains to become a good footballer; then the gift is qualified and no longer free of any attachment. Giving love is giving just love. Otherwise, if giving with an attachment, it becomes something else. A gift of love automatically includes all the attributes of love such as hope, peace and forgiveness, but I am not able to give love if there is an expectation, condition or attachment. To say “I will give you this, if you do or allow that” is a trade rather than a gift. Love is not a trading commodity. Similarly love cannot be: " I'll love you if you do this", such is manipulation. The gift of love is free, love is free.
Using the term “unconditional love” tends to acknowledge there is such a thing as “conditional” love, but conditional love has no credence being no longer love. The same applies to “pure” love for impure love cannot exist. The quality of love is assured.
As I give lovingly, I have given. I am not responsible for the receiver. A car travelling a little strangely on the road has a bumper sticker saying “Honk if you want a hug”. I lovingly give a honk. The driver thinks I am honking because of odd road behaviour and gets upset, forgetting that there is a bumper sticker on the rear of the vehicle. While it is a pity that the driver may be angry, I am not answerable for that. I gave in love.
I have been given my body. I was not given my body on condition that I exercise and keep it fit, or that I feed myself only the correct foods. No, I was given my body and I have the freedom of choice to do as I will. It is up to me what I choose, but if I care for my body, then my body in return will care for me. As I love myself, I am loved and I free myself: there is no purpose in being a slave. I freely give love because I choose to, not because I want something.
One thing not to give away is my power. This happens in subtle ways. For example I might consider a certain number unlucky and by doing so I am giving power to that number to be so. This is true of many many “superstitions”. The converse is also true in that as I consider something to be lucky I am by default tolerating unluckiness.
If I am not giving, I am holding on. If I am holding onto something I am not making space to receive. If my plate is full, there is no room for anything else. Practise giving, for as I give then I receive. Giving opens the door to life, giving opens the door to love and allows me to be given to. Dare to give myself over to love. There is nothing I need that love does not give in abundance. If I am not giving love I am wasting the life given to me.
If stuck, find something easy to love, perhaps hug a tree for from that willingness to start the joy of love will well up within. It is a privilege to give love but do not take love for granted. The only deed I am to do is to give and accept love. Love is everlasting, what a wonderful gift to give and receive. Give love this opportunity for love cannot then but help to likewise give of itself.
Practice.
In quiet and stillness, be open to giving and receiving. Consider yourself a perfect gift waiting to be unwrapped. Undo the package and find the wondrous presence inside. Find your lovable self within. Accept the joy of being and be thankful.
To help me
understand myself I need to come to a better understanding of my personal traits and make up: my “airs and
graces”. But they are far more menacing than that. I refer to them collectively
as “egos”. Those veils and masks I put on to hide and conceal the real me. The
cover up and disguises I habitually use; the excuses, delaying tactics,
addictions and control. All the deceptions, in part or in whole, that
camouflage and conceal my real self. When considered as a whole, their
multiplicity represents a total shield about me, complete with fortifications.
I have built and committed myself to my own prison, yet I do not realize.
Examples of egos are: justifying, pretending to be who I am not, being jealous or envious, belittling others, denying, avoidance, fear, blaming, curtness, desire, lust, greed, indulgence, laziness, righteous indignation, self pride, manipulation, attention grabbing, possessiveness, judging and so on and so on. They are a private collection that I have accumulated through my lifetime and I continue to add to them. My mind is full of the bickering amongst these egos, their squabbling is at the expense of my soul.
I define egos to include all thoughts, characteristics, patterns, excuses and emotions that in some feature or another I use, intentionally or unknowingly, to avoid being in the company of love.
There are armies of egos within my mind, constantly battling amongst themselves at the expense of my being. They are present in all of us in varying amounts, each person being different. They are usually easier to see in others than in self. They are coverings of my own making that stop me from outwardly being who I am. They are the enemies of love. I live with so many of these deceptions. Each hinders me from living my reality, my truth. No wonder love seems so remote.
No ego has the ability to make me spiritually happy. Egos are the chaos merchants, the ones that like confusion and creating problems. They are the source of the turmoils of my life, each blaming and causing resentment. They are the antagonists who manifest themselves at the expense of my soul. Egos are clever enough to put the love within me to sleep. They cover my soul attempting to bury it. They constantly endeavour to devour my true essence, they block me from seeing who I really am. As I give power to an ego, I lose They are not to be taken lightly.
The more of these egos I carry, the heavier I find life; although they will always tell me otherwise. The less the egos, the lighter I am, the more I am free. Egos gain my attention by offering me a way to allow them to control my mind, tricking me into thinking that it is for the best and this is what life is all about. But egos deny me access to my rightful life, they are addicted to me and I, unwittingly, am addicted to them. Each tries to dominate in one way or another. They expand their purpose with the sole intention of being uppermost in my thinking. Thus they divert me from being who I really am. Egos are only interested in self survival and at the expense of anyone and anything, including me. Each of their aims is supremacy and they would have me bound. They are intent on satisfying their own selfish needs. Each time I have a thought other than love, I encourage an ego.
Should I be addicted to cigarettes, then to some extent cigarettes control me. If I am addicted to alcohol, indulgence, possessions, pride, culture, dominating, drugs, loftiness, authority, or whatever, then each is constantly battling to impose itself over me in an ongoing effort to gain supremacy. Egos demand urgent fulfilment, each warring one with another and ruthlessly vying to be in the top spot. In total they are out to dominate me. They would have me believe that they are searching for answers and solutions to assist me through life, but in fact it is just their way of being satisfied at the expense of my truth. There are legions of egos within me, addictions that are at war to maintain their own selfish desires. As I feed an ego, it becomes stronger, it strives to consume me. My soul knows about my egos, but I am so busy associating with them that I ignore my core being. This is to the egos’ delight.
When I see egos in others I may be attracted to them and adopt them. As others see egos in me they likewise may become attached and accept them into their own lives. Others may dump egos on me and I may dump on others. Dumping itself is a key ego as I dump or off load my perceived attitudes and problems onto another. As I masquerade behind my egos it serves to help them multiply and strengthen. No ego is trivial, they all cause pain.
Amongst them are many tricksters, they will tell me that judgement is necessary, they will deceive me: they will categorise and justify their desires at my expense. They encourage me to criticise and distract me from the truth. They divert me from love. All this and so much more while at the same time convincing me that I need them. By their nature they teach me about greed, blame, impatience, possession, ungratefulness, suspicion, superiority, guilt and their kin. Egos fight with egos in an ongoing battle in their effort to control. In combination their intent is to blind me from love. They are all interested in self-survival at the expense of anyone and anything, especially me. Deviously they collectively drive me away from my real existence, from being who I truly am. Their objective is to eclipse my spirit, clouding my fundamental nature, blocking out its light. The very consideration of allowing love to become supreme within me is contrary to an ego’s nature and abhorrent to each and every one of them. They convince me that I lack, that I don’t own enough. Each aims for supremacy and they would have me bound as I desperately try to satisfy their needs. They are the one’s that cause me hurt and pain as they strive to create separation and limitation. They are parasites living off me that contrive, control, command, dominate, invent, divide, concoct, hatch, scheme; that do anything to achieve their advantage. I recognise some of them but I little realise their cost to my soul. They turn me into their slave as I join in their disputes. My mind is constantly involved in their altercations and bickering. My soul is the victim, my very being is the casualty of their squabbling. The chatter of my mind is the chattering of the egos who are drowning out the feelings of my soul. In this conflict my very essence is at risk. My mind is subjected to the wrangling company of all these egos and there is no acceptable environment for love to properly develop within me. Anything I say or do that is not loving is pampering to an ego. The ego asks: "What can I get?" Love asks: "What can I give?”
Yet I have allowed all this. These veils are of my hanging, the masks are of my making; these are the patterns I have sanctioned. I defend so many egos that I feed a feeding frenzy; not even recognising what I am doing. I have allowed egos to blind my vision to the extent that I have difficulty recognising love even though it is steadfastly ever present. It is not surprising that love sometimes seems so distant. My life thus far has been a process of collecting these egos, these masks, these disguises. I hide behind them at the expense of my life and my soul.
So let go of the old ways and excuses such as confusion, time wasting, lies, moans, hostilities, denials, resentments, upsets, deviousness, guilt, helplessness, negativity, annoyance, diversions, frustration, fear, hurt, mistrust, pain, resentment, sadness, upsets, battles, arguing, resistance, arrogance, pride, conceit, selfishness, self importance, denials, conceit, self centredness, spite, arrogance, all these obsessions and more. In their vacated space create harmony, joy, happiness, singing, music, laughter, and be loving. Bring forth my true ability to reveal my love given qualities of service, abundance, expansion, dedication, discipline, balance, direction, devotion, guidance, increase, genuineness, truth, focus, spontaneity, freedom, openness, fun, playfulness, awareness and all qualities that assist me in accepting love.
Be hopeful, for without hope there cannot be love.
Should I not admit to the presence of these egos within me I am living a lie for they are present, in some form or another, in each and everyone of us. I may have difficulty recognising them for they are deceitful and will frequently pretend to be what they are not. If I do not do something to get rid of my egos then, by default, I support their existence and allow them domination.
I am now challenged to put the egos of the world away and in their place to live with love so that I may again be with my core being, my soul. The yearning to make this change is ever within me.
Whenever I have a thought other than love, I am encouraging an ego. Love is without ego, for if love had an ego it would no longer be love. My undertaking is to free myself of these masks, veils and addictions and once again reveal myself as a soul visitor to this planet rather than a being of the world. I need to practise by firstly observing, recognising and identifying an ego and then reject it: decimating, eradicating, exterminating and annihilating it. Giving up smoking or alcohol is not easy, giving up an ego is likewise a significant task. But I have help!
I do this in act, mind and deed to move out of confusion and into understanding. Love is the only remover of egos and love will always show me the way. To try to use anything other than love would be just be a different ego tricking me so that it may move into the vacated space and once there assume control. Dissolve in love, all thoughts and all forms of egos, dissolve within and without, in humility and with thanks. Likewise dissolve their relations, associated forms and energies. Be determined, decimate, eradicate, exterminate and annihilate them, together with their associates. If I do not do these things, they will grow in their determination to dominate my soul at the expense of the child within.
As I break out of their cycle I again live love. As I do these things lovingly and with thanks I receive hope and peace. Love is mightily stronger than all my egos and is the one and only weapon capable of dislodging them. Allow this free gift of love to remove my limitations to reveal beyond my expanse, beyond my current knowledge, beyond my present understanding, my current sight, feelings, emotions and thoughts so that a huge shift in consciousness occurs. Totally remove these parasites in all forms, within and without, together with their related energy and associations. Cast them off forever. By this action I reduce their ranks allowing love where I had previously rejected love. I do these things with humility, thanking love for the assistance while loving myself as I do so.
As I start to throw this excess baggage overboard, I lighten up and I become less shackled. I make space to again be free and spend more time in the presence of love. Beware though of the procrastinator, for my egos will always provide another question, they will always try to delay me and offer alternatives. Just let them know that the “Ego Buster” has arrived and the more I use it the better it works, remembering that every time I say “No” to an ego, then the space is there for love to be within. Remember, every time I dissolve and put aside an ego I am thankful.
Practice.
Recognise an ego, dissolve it with love, rejoice in the feeling of turning the tide as the ego is vanquished by truth and love. Thank love for the assistance given.
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